Darling,
I may never finish these thrice-accursed essays, but I found something whilst doing research which perfectly illustrates that feeling I’ve been having, late at night, when I contemplate the perigean moon (it just passed, a few days ago). It made me think of you, Vincent dear, and I know you’ll appreciate this.
“…I am a very curious assembly of incongruous parts. My yea! of to-day is oddly different from my yea! of yesterday. My tears of to-morrow will have nothing to do with my tears of a year ago. If the one I love remains unchanged and unchanging, I shall cease to love her. It is only because she changes and startles me into change and defies my inertia, and is herself staggered in her inertia by my changing, that I can continue to love her. If she stayed put, I might as well love the pepper-pot.” – D. H. Lawrence, “Why The Novel Matters”
And so, naturally, I think of Monty Python’s pepper-pots, and grin to myself, when I should be taking things more seriously and giving up on internet dating.
If only D. H. Lawrence were around today! I’m sick of my own inertia; I wish to collide with someone else’s for a change.